yeah

i know

how it feels to like work hard but then it seems its still not good enough, even if you are doing the best u can to be a good leader and a good student at the same time. some people just wont appreciate what you do and will always look beyond your "negative attributes" rather than the effort that youre giving.

BLAH.

i hate my parents like so much..coz u know ive been changing alot about my personality...like im getting really hardcore now but in a healthy kind of way (i hope) but they always think that my bf is influencing me to do this and that. i really really hate that about them and now that im a senior (everyone knows its expensive to be a senior because u have so many things to pay for),,,they dont even provide my basic needs like i was forced to do my senior picture in some cheap-aaaasssss STUDIO.it wasnt that crappy (thank god im pretty.lol) but i hated the fact that they always cut down their budjet on ME. f*ck that. i really think theyre being so inconsiderate about my feelings and how can they just ground me for every stupid little thing i do. i mean seriously im just trying to live up my life and its not like i stay up until the break of dawn partying.i know my limitations too (well, atleast i try to keep it in mind) but WHATEVER.so now im really really depressed and confused about this sh*T and the fact that we MIGHT move again to another house/town because we dont have that much money. now i dont wanna move not ONLY because of my darling bf but i really dont wanna transfer schools, i mean im really in a good standing now in alvarez high and i know theyre gonna help me get a scholarship one way or another. dont they get it? when we move, i have to start from scratch again and it might ruin my chance of getting into a good college and FFFUUUCCCKKK im gonna ruin my ever-so-awesome social life. im soo happy because i have the most amazing friends, and most wonderful bf...i couldn't care less about my idotic family.it only makes me unhappy.

*stressed out,compulsive.*

i AM cherry rush, lemon soda. i shower with candy ice

the sweetest pathalogical liar you have met yet

a living proof of

"people moving are warmer than people at rest."

closer than before, going farther even more.

i speak enough to operate the sinkhole

of all those good old fashion values beyond this dead end

a kiss from your jello rainbow lips can burn linoleum

on grieving hospital walls

but now i know for sure that being with you

makes death consoling.

they said neglect is sacrifice

and suffering is sacrifice

without pain there is no suffering

and thats when i cut and said

"when does love come in?"

today was scary.tiring.messed up and pure hardwork.

... eric is being a stubborn ass, he's the one who's insecure.i cant believe he think theres no way that im a senior.

what an idiot.

4.0 gpa,

all AP classes next year.

senior=16 years old.

enough said.

i do believe in the first ammendment of the freedom of speech but i also believe that fucking copying someone else's blog/poem or anything is 100 % disrespectfully CRAPPY.so those of you all trying to make something out of your fucking selves,when no one else is listening dont even think about being ME.coz im way better than some back-stabbing FAGGOTS out there.i can and will find out if your "using" MY material.

if you did or may have "accidentally" copied my BLOGS, you better watch your back coz imma make you bend over like a thumb-sucking road-whore,ill ruin your life.

thankyou.thats all.